Maladjusted

Isn’t it ironic how you were always so 

protective of me, but now you’re the one 

hurting me.

2012 PHOTO VOMIT.

I usually write a lot, but now I become lazier than I was before. Sometimes I think that I should Blog more often but then I think.....better not hahahha, no one reades it anyway.

2012 has been hell of a FUN roller coaster ride.
So here they are the highlights or mostly important events of 2012.

Highschool graduation, I will never forget our awesome graduation because I didn't cry and received a lot of awards and recognitions.

 SUMMER 2012 - Pamarta Bali with family (finally had the guts to wear swimsuit), Kaartehan, Pool fun with church fam., Choir outing

Grand Santacruzan - The reason why I agreed to join this is because the gown was gorgeous and i have a huge crown, I want to show it off LOL, My partner is my best friend, and  I'm with my brother and cousin .

COLLEGE, yes I'm still a Paulinian :|

MASSCOM! ABMC1A <3 nbsp="">

Having the chance to see and talk to my local and super ultimate Crush DANIEL PADILLA <3 nbsp="" p="">

Being still attached with my high school buddies although we go now in different colleges and universities. Ian's despedida party -Blessie's annual halloween party-Outing with batch mates and ❤-Pazcielo's house party-sembreak -photoshoot-Balaybay.

My sister and her husband's pre-nup photo-shoot BTS!

Marian Camp with the Best BLOCK eveeeeeeer

Meeting my college girlfriends CES,IYIA,KAT,ROCH,GELLI,BIA,YANA

Christmas 2012. CHILL XMAS! AHAHAHAHAH celebrated it with family <3 p="">

BYE 2012

HI!!!!!!

This ones for you. you’re the one worth waiting for.  Words can’t express, the impact you’ve made on me, in my entire life. And all I can say is that I love you, for everything it serves out.”

Hold on tight because I will never give up on us, 
ILOVEYOUSOMUCH EMSR

Hi baby

TRUE

IF ONLY YOU COULD READ THIS!

Updating because I missed blogging and I need one way or another to release all this shits out of my head.

Ever get the feeling of  being thrown away? DUMPED, HATED,USELESS & UNWANTED?

Well, right now that is how I am feeling and i can't sort the living shit out of me!! I don't know how to deal with this or how can I get through this. Most of the time I pretend that I'm OK but inside I'm hurting and crying to myself. I've been on my dark side for the past few weeks , acting so weird and doing things that I've never did before. I honestly don't know myself anymore I am now the person that I'm afraid to be. I'm kinda disgusted with myself right now . THIS IS ALL SO WRONG and I'm not happy with it.I want my old life back no, I WANT MY OLD LIFE WITH YOU BACK! When will I realize that this is nothing , that I can never have it (YOU) again. I've been in this kind of situation before but, why does this feel so different?  I can't stop thinking about it (YOU) . I think that I should stop and move on but HOW?????????  I even cut my hair and drowned myself with liquor, IT DIDN'T HELP.

Sometimes I feel like I'm just being too melodramatic and OA but then I realized WHY DID I LET MYSELF LET YOU GO? WHAT THE HELL WAS I THINKING ?? WHY DIDN'T I SHOWED YOU HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU ??? I'm out of reasons and tears already all I know is I WANT YOU BACK, I WANT US BACK!!!! I miss everything about us. At night I pray that soon everything will be ok , If only you can read this and if only this can help :(( It's over I can't do anything anymore to have you back. Maybe you found someone better than me , someone who show's you your worth and she's lucky!!! I don't get why I can't stay mad at you maybe because I blame myself for all of this!!

If only I can go back I will try to fix all of this!!!
YES I'm too in love to let it all go.
YES I'm being an EMO here.
YES I still love you.
I wish for your happiness and for mine too.


But I guess I need to let you go.......

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