3 weeks ago we found out that I have a Rheumatic heart disease and there are incidents that I have trouble breathing and moving and since that day there are alot of things that I am not able to do like going out with my friends, shouting, Laugh, cry, jump and even running is prohibited another is I am not allowed to eat or drin juice,coffee, softdrinks,chocolates and icecream etc. Right now My life is a living hell!
I never wanted this to happen but it seems like everyone thinks I do
I am not allowed to be stressed but I think every time my parents and sister nags about this it make's me really upset and stressed shit! I hate this
Right now everyone is treating me like a paper ,Fragile it can easily break. I know they are just concern with me but this crap! I don't want this I want my normal life back please! I want chocolates and icecreams.
So Last friday (july 22 2011) in the middle of our English exam I got everyone's attention when I started shaking and palpitating, ofcourse my classmates were all shocked to see me like that and my English teacher started panicking that's when the school nurse came and started to calm me I really don't know what happened and I can't really calm myself that time because I cannot feel my hands and feet already and I don't know why I am shaking They ask me If I could walk in to the clinic , I tried to but when I already reached the corridor of our classroom near the stairs I had the feeling of falling down so I immediately hold a grip on something and told the nurse I need to take time , they ask 2 of my classmates to carry but I insist that I can because I was really scared that we might fall down! by that time the other students from the classroom we are near in was looking at me teachers went outside of the classrooms and I was the center of their attention .It didn't take long when I decided to go down already the nurse and my 2 classmate were holding me and when we reach the end of the staircase they carried me already on our way to the clinic which was really embarrassing because they walked in the middle of the school ground carrying a shaking and palpitating ugly and fat girl (me). The nurse called my dad and ask if he could bring my oxygen tank but my insisted to bring me home na nalang! So at home my dad was super worried and my grandma she don't know what to do , My oxygen tank ofcourse it saved me again ,my tito jun and tita ting visited me and checked if I was ok my mom was calling over and over and over again because she was in Manila that time. (the whole day I received text messages from my relatives asking if I'm ok na)
All day the oxygen tank was attached to me
whatever happens my big smile is with me
The day really sucked good thing my dad was super caring, and the best thing that had happened that day was when shockingly my friends visited me and my crush was present :))) **majorbigsmiles they saw me using my oxygen tank and they really cared about me Ilovethem I'm glad they visited me because It really helped me (A LOT) and ofcourse My CRUSH
(sayang we have no picture)
So I hope the thing that happened in the school won't happen again
I need to take good care of myself ,I know that this will not be permanent
I'll have my old life back in no time
